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[HarleyPaige]

Escaping Prostitution and The Adult entertainment industry

My name is ******* im 23 and I am a prostitute. I have been in the adult industry sense i was 18. Due to a very abusive home life i was taken into state custody when i was 16. I was forced to be a adult and work and go to school to pay for my own rent ect. I had to work so i was not able to finish high school. I feel deep in to drinking and some drug use.( i no longer am now and have seeked help and am doing great with this) I got caught up in the wrong crowd and my self to got into abusive relationships. I was not able to work a normal job do to being a "house wife" so i turned to the adult industry on the suggestion to the abusive b/f.

I started doing web cam shows for money with playboy live and hustlerlive and other big companys after making the decision to leave this guy i fell flat onto my face and had to move back home. I lasted a week there before i had to leave to due the amount of abuse in the home done to my mom and 2 young sisters i could not take it. I took what i had and moved a hour away. I tried to make a honest living as a bartender but this did not work so i went back to web cam modeling and started to dance as well. At this time i was young and stupid and fell for one of those Nigerian scams I lost almost $5000 at the age of 18. I again fell on my face and was forced to move in with a b/f. This ended horribly. So i sold every thing i had and moved to the west cost to Portland. here i met what i thought was the man of my dreams he turned out to be a nightmare. We married with in knowing each other 5 months.

I was once the housewife. doing nothing but cleaning, cooking and such. Well he started to drink very heavy then one night he came home and tried to kill me. He tried to electrocute me. I filled for divorce the next day. At this time i had no idea what i needed to do for work. I had seen the show "cathouse" many times. I submitted my photos and info and received a call a few weeks later. i was down there a week later working.I hated it, it was nothing like the tv show it was ****. I left 2 weeks later and came back to Portland with no money in my pocket and not knowing what to do.

I became a escort here in Portland. after about 3 months of this i wanted out! But no one will hire me because i have no skills for the most part and i have a lot of tattoos. So i figure the best way to do this is to go to school.

My parents are not willing to help me what so ever with school ( they have no idea what i do) weather it be to help me pay for some of it. or even co sign on a government loan. I can not get federal aid because they make to much and i am 14 days short of the birthday cut off to be considered dependent so they go off my parents tax forms but they make to much so i cant even get federal funding. I want to stop being a escort soo bad! I have found the school i want to attend. It is 7 months long and $10,000 to complete. I want to go for hair this has always been a passion for me and something i am very good at. But at this point i have no clue how i am going to be able to go. the school im going to takes me with out a ged or a high school depluma

You may ask why i want to get out so bad. Well i have a great and caring man in my life. He is my motivation. He has been in school for political science for 3 years. he is now in Germany for a year going to school. when he comes back he will be working on his law degree.he cant drink as well because of gout so i do not have to worry about him being a abusive drunk like the others. He gets sad every time i tell him that i am still prostituting he says i am so much better then that and i deserve respect.I could not agree more. But he said that if i am not out of the adult industry when he comes back in 10 months we will no longer be together. not only do i want this for my self cause i hate doing this but i also want it for me and him.

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[Celestia]

Well I hate to say it, but life is completely unfair in what it makes some people resort to. You've had to go through a lot more than you evenr should have because for many reasons I won't go into. The main pointis that there are ways out, ALWAYS. If you go to collegeboard.com or just search google there are plenty of nonacademic scholarships that are given away every year for the average joe/jane. Thing as simple as essays on what your favorite food is and why, made for people in situations like this where help is needed to go to school. I hate to ask, but have you looked everywhere for a job? I know they may not be the best, but even a job flipping burgers is MANY steps above selling yourself. Are your tattoos in obvious places, or ones that you could cover up with say a turtleneck or something? I know it would be rather miserable working like that, but the main point is getting a job to start. Again, it's not as glamorous, but there's almost always room at McDonalds or some other such place, even with the economy going like it is. I'm glad you found someone who care about you so much, even though I'm not sure how that works out. Did you know him before he left?

Hope any of this helped! Baci e abbracci,
Celestia

((P.S. is the add reply option acting up for anyone else?))

[keykey]

Escaping Prostitution and The Adult entertainment industry

My name is ******* im 23 and I am a prostitute. I have been in the adult industry sense i was 18. Due to a very abusive home life i was taken into state custody when i was 16. I was forced to be a adult and work and go to school to pay for my own rent ect. I had to work so i was not able to finish high school. I feel deep in to drinking and some drug use.( i no longer am now and have seeked help and am doing great with this) I got caught up in the wrong crowd and my self to got into abusive relationships. I was not able to work a normal job do to being a "house wife" so i turned to the adult industry on the suggestion to the abusive b/f.

I started doing web cam shows for money with playboy live and hustlerlive and other big companys after making the decision to leave this guy i fell flat onto my face and had to move back home. I lasted a week there before i had to leave to due the amount of abuse in the home done to my mom and 2 young sisters i could not take it. I took what i had and moved a hour away. I tried to make a honest living as a bartender but this did not work so i went back to web cam modeling and started to dance as well. At this time i was young and stupid and fell for one of those Nigerian scams I lost almost $5000 at the age of 18. I again fell on my face and was forced to move in with a b/f. This ended horribly. So i sold every thing i had and moved to the west cost to Portland. here i met what i thought was the man of my dreams he turned out to be a nightmare. We married with in knowing each other 5 months.

I was once the housewife. doing nothing but cleaning, cooking and such. Well he started to drink very heavy then one night he came home and tried to kill me. He tried to electrocute me. I filled for divorce the next day. At this time i had no idea what i needed to do for work. I had seen the show "cathouse" many times. I submitted my photos and info and received a call a few weeks later. i was down there a week later working.I hated it, it was nothing like the tv show it was ****. I left 2 weeks later and came back to Portland with no money in my pocket and not knowing what to do.

I became a escort here in Portland. after about 3 months of this i wanted out! But no one will hire me because i have no skills for the most part and i have a lot of tattoos. So i figure the best way to do this is to go to school.

My parents are not willing to help me what so ever with school ( they have no idea what i do) weather it be to help me pay for some of it. or even co sign on a government loan. I can not get federal aid because they make to much and i am 14 days short of the birthday cut off to be considered dependent so they go off my parents tax forms but they make to much so i cant even get federal funding. I want to stop being a escort soo bad! I have found the school i want to attend. It is 7 months long and $10,000 to complete. I want to go for hair this has always been a passion for me and something i am very good at. But at this point i have no clue how i am going to be able to go. the school im going to takes me with out a ged or a high school depluma

You may ask why i want to get out so bad. Well i have a great and caring man in my life. He is my motivation. He has been in school for political science for 3 years. he is now in Germany for a year going to school. when he comes back he will be working on his law degree.he cant drink as well because of gout so i do not have to worry about him being a abusive drunk like the others. He gets sad every time i tell him that i am still prostituting he says i am so much better then that and i deserve respect.I could not agree more. But he said that if i am not out of the adult industry when he comes back in 10 months we will no longer be together. not only do i want this for my self cause i hate doing this but i also want it for me and him.

[keykey]

first let me say that i think you are absolutely pretty and i think that you are going to be just fine everybody makes bad choices but you will be a very strong girl and much wiser after you overcome you trials and heartache you have to learn how to move forward and leave all the past behind so you can move on with your life and be a better person again you can do it and you are very beautiful

[belairdude]

This is an amazing story, it really blew me away. It's amazing to think that things like this happen to people you would think are very nice and fairly normal. I'd love to talk to you more for a book I'm writing about trouble that teens can get into. It would be great to have info from someone who's been through it already.

If you're interested in talking to me just send me an e-mail at reachrabbit@gmail.com I want to hear your whole story, maybe we can work together to raise the money you need for school.

[HarleyPaige]

up date:

I am still doing it. I have now gotten into film as another means of income with the ecom the way it is. I have lost my love of my life to this. I was also arrested last week and now could face up to 6 months in jail. Im at my wits end. I don't know what to do. I don't want to do this any more but i have no way out!

[AustinWalter87]

up date:

I am still doing it. I have now gotten into film as another means of income with the ecom the way it is. I have lost my love of my life to this. I was also arrested last week and now could face up to 6 months in jail. Im at my wits end. I don't know what to do. I don't want to do this any more but i have no way out!

There is no easy way out, you're going to suffer in the short term in order to escape that lifestyle.

It will gain momentum though and return to an everyday normal life like a lot of other people.

If you want a way out, just get out, run. Embrace the short term pain in order to get out successfully, and you will finally be out.

[kitty]

[quote name='HarleyPaige' date='Sep 18 2008, 06:08 PM' post='6678']
Escaping Prostitution and The Adult entertainment industry

My name is ******* im 23 and I am a prostitute. I have been in the adult industry sense i was 18. Due to a very abusive home life i was taken into state custody when i was 16. I was forced to be a adult and work and go to school to pay for my own rent ect. I had to work so i was not able to finish high school. I feel deep in to drinking and some drug use.( i no longer am now and have seeked help and am doing great with this) I got caught up in the wrong crowd and my self to got into abusive relationships. I was not able to work a normal job do to being a "house wife" so i turned to the adult industry on the suggestion to the abusive b/f.

I started doing web cam shows for money with playboy live and hustlerlive and other big companys after making the decision to leave this guy i fell flat onto my face and had to move back home. I lasted a week there before i had to leave to due the amount of abuse in the home done to my mom and 2 young sisters i could not take it. I took what i had and moved a hour away. I tried to make a honest living as a bartender but this did not work so i went back to web cam modeling and started to dance as well. At this time i was young and stupid and fell for one of those Nigerian scams I lost almost $5000 at the age of 18. I again fell on my face and was forced to move in with a b/f. This ended horribly. So i sold every thing i had and moved to the west cost to Portland. here i met what i thought was the man of my dreams he turned out to be a nightmare. We married with in knowing each other 5 months.

I was once the housewife. doing nothing but cleaning, cooking and such. Well he started to drink very heavy then one night he came home and tried to kill me. He tried to electrocute me. I filled for divorce the next day. At this time i had no idea what i needed to do for work. I had seen the show "cathouse" many times. I submitted my photos and info and received a call a few weeks later. i was down there a week later working.I hated it, it was nothing like the tv show it was ****. I left 2 weeks later and came back to Portland with no money in my pocket and not knowing what to do.

I became a escort here in Portland. after about 3 months of this i wanted out! But no one will hire me because i have no skills for the most part and i have a lot of tattoos. So i figure the best way to do this is to go to school.

My parents are not willing to help me what so ever with school ( they have no idea what i do) weather it be to help me pay for some of it. or even co sign on a government loan. I can not get federal aid because they make to much and i am 14 days short of the birthday cut off to be considered dependent so they go off my parents tax forms but they make to much so i cant even get federal funding. I want to stop being a escort soo bad! I have found the school i want to attend. It is 7 months long and $10,000 to complete. I want to go for hair this has always been a passion for me and something i am very good at. But at this point i have no clue how i am going to be able to go. the school im going to takes me with out a ged or a high school depluma

You may ask why i want to get out so bad. Well i have a great and caring man in my life. He is my motivation. He has been in school for political science for 3 years. he is now in Germany for a year going to school. when he comes back he will be working on his law degree.he cant drink as well because of gout so i do not have to worry about him being a abusive drunk like the others. He gets sad every time i tell him that i am still prostituting he says i am so much better then that and i deserve respect.I could not agree more. But he said that if i am not out of the adult industry when he comes back in 10 months we will no longer be together. not only do i want this for my self cause i hate doing this but i also want it for me and him.


[/quote TO BE HONEST WITH U DEAR, WHY WON'T UR BF HELP U, IF HE LOVES U HE WILL TAKE U OUT OF WHAT EVER UR DOIN, I SAY THAT BECAUSE I WAS A WHORE ALSO, N ON SERIOUS DRUGS, BUT I MEANT MY HUSBAND 15 YRS AGO IN A CRACK HOUSE, N WE FELL IN LOVE AND GOT MARRIED AND HE WORKS EVERY DAY TO TAKE CARE OF ME SO I DONT HAVE TO DO THAT NO MORE, WE ARE ON METHADONE NOW, AND WEVE BEEN CLEAN FOR 12 YRS, IF WE CAN DO SO CAN U N HIM, DO HE REALLY LOVE U, THINK ABOUT THAT, IF HE DID, HE WOULD DO SUMTHING ABOUT UR SITUATION, KITTY